October 8, 2007 And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return, we can only look behind from where we came
And go round and round and round in the circle game Joni Mitchell
I know this was how I felt all the time last year, captive on the carousel of time . I felt I was on the carousel from hell. Last year all I could do was look back and wallow in my long long lists of mistakes.
This year the carousel has slowed down and has let me off for a bit…no not permanently but that is okay.
Today I made myself paint and I made several huge mistakes and yes I became completely overwhelmed but I would not let myself walk away or make excuses why I could not paint. These are not finished but so far I like what I have created.