Warm your heart


2/11/07 "Healing is not forcing the sun to shine but letting go of that which blocks the sun." Stephen & Ondrea Levine


I know looking back I  tried desperately hard to sit still and listen. I remember feeling bewildered and thinking what am I missing? I kept rereading my journals as if I was staring at a magic blackboard that was going to give me my answers. I wondered was I not ready to sit still? But no I was sitting still but I was not hearing anything. Were my ears filled with cotton? All my ears could  hear was my constant internal chatter.
From my vantage point of today I understand it is hard to still this time of year. I know today I am aching to be outside working in the yard but it is to cold. I think the high today will be 26 with a bitter wind. I want to see green which symbolizes new beginnings. I am tired of gray and brown. I also notice this time of year I  feel the need to change my schedule and wake up earlier. But I can hardly drag myself out of bed at 7:00 A.M. So who am I kidding why am I setting my alarm for 6:00 A.M.?                                                                          Dscn0091

Okay what do I need to let go off? What am I resisting? What is holding me back? What am I scared off? Maybe I need to stop searching so hard for an answer. Could that be my answer am I simple trying to hard. Do I just need to relax and feel the warmth of the sun? Should I follow the examples of my dogs who follow the sun around the house?


So this morning I followed my heart when my Kathleen neighbor called ask me to help her put a coat of briwax on her bathroom cabinet I said yes. When I walked in her kitchen what was I greeted with but a plethora of food from New York city. Fresh  semolina bread, mozzarella cheese, bagels, pastries, and strong Irish tea. Not only did I have a fabulous breakfast but I was also given a huge to go bag. All I did was put the final finishes on a base cabinet and I was treated like a queen. So I let go of all the things I thought I needed to do and enjoyed the warmth of sunshine generated by friendship. So for today I pledge to honor the importance of friendship. When I looked at the pictures Megan downloaded on my computer  I smiled. I was reminded of the joys of friendship when we were young and how we still need to honor those friendships today.   


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2 Responses to Warm your heart

  1. darlene says:

    thank you for the smiles this morning … and the reminder 🙂

  2. kateri says:

    You are in such a seeking and gathering mode lately…it is so inspiring. it seems like you gather from every direction and pour it all into this funnel and let it flow through you, slowly, drip by drip and let it find it’s way to your words. You seem like you are softly glowing. 🙂 I am sending you lots of light, and thoughts, and thanks for your words here. I am always left with questions to ask myself, and a little more lgiht along my own path.
    Love, love, love….

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